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Jun 2, 2007

dunno what to feel~~~

Saw sth that made me rather unhappy today....
I cant help but keep thinking about whether I am doing the right thing by saying those things.
I kindas feel like I am being used.
Made me feel stupid when it might not even really matter.

Actually, it's not about right or wrong, because most of the time, things are done willingly. People cannot force you to do it even if you want to do it. Likewise, people cannot stop you from doing anything if you really wanna do it.
Rather, it made me think if it is worth it.
If it's not worthwhile, perhaps it should be stopped.
But somehow, the engine always get ignited.

It's not that it doesnt matter sometimes, it's just that at sometimes, the mind is clear. Hence, it looked like it doesnt matter.

Who is making this so complicated?

Things led to another.
Maybe whatever that has happened has left a scar, but sparks are somehow still there and perhaps it might just be as bright as before.

Nothing has been mentioned after the wound has been recovered.Though this is a gd thing, it's not how I like it to be...But things have been going smoothly and I am happy the way it is.

I enjoy the way things are said and done now.
It's distant yet close and closed.
Maybe it's coz we've found out what really went wrong,we've understand each other better or we've matured and changed for the better.
Maybe we've also realized that it's all in the past and there are more exciting things that to come.

Left a note at 10:52:00 PM