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Nov 14, 2008

今天很郁闷。

For whatever reason that I know of and can think of.
In fact, it's an accumulation of feelings...
From disappointment to anger to losing faith...
Because it just seems to be getting more distant. So distant that I cannot feel anything anymore.
There's no joy, no mood, no emotions, probably just answering for the sake of answering.

I dont like it, in fact, I feel offended.
What's the point of saying you dont want to do it and then calling other pple to do the same thing?
If you dont want to join, please say so.
It's not like I will die knowing that you dont want to do it with our company.

I wasnt that offended at first, but as I sat down to think through the things you said and done, it became rather clear that you were being a little dishonest about the truth.

And what is the truth?
I bet only you know.
You can tell me when you feel like it, but I know you wouldnt, coz we dont feel close enough, or you dont feel close, comfortable or convenient enough to tell.

Things actually turned out pretty nice, maybe I was a little too hasty and ruined things up. That's why things ended up this way. And now, I realised, your equation is very simple.

100 x 0 = 0.

It's simple math. I should have seen the hidden zero right from the beginning and not assume that the zero would increase day by day to something positive.

It's been a long time since I have last been this moody.
Hope the mood will lighten up when we meet the next time.

Hopefully.

Left a note at 1:18:00 AM