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Oct 23, 2009

Is that where we are heading?

I was talking to a friend yesterday and it suddenly came to my realisation that most of the time, the relationship of 2 persons that understand and love each other deeply dont blossom...
There are just too many instances that prove this theory.

The fact that you love, that's why you treasure it more than anything.
The fact that you treasure, that's why you do your best to protect.
The more you protect, the more pressurizing it gets.
When pressure builds up, you take steps back.
You get into another comfort zone.
You feel at ease.
You find new meanings in life.
You build relationships with other pple.
You slowly forget..
And they slowly become beautiful memories...
It's a pity...but it's inevitable.
It withers.

The fact that you understand, you tend to keep quiet because you seem to know everthing.
The silence leads to assumptions that things are the way you see them.
The assumptions creates a glass wall and it gets thicker as assumptions build up.
When assumptions build up and remain unclear, awkwardness sets in.
You feel awkward to talk.
You feel invasive if you ask a lot qns.
You dont ask.
You feel drifted.
And again, they become memories.
It becomes history.

Is that where we are heading?

Left a note at 12:23:00 AM

Oct 18, 2009

Drifting apart

What's the best way to find out if you have drifted apart?
Probably when you no longer care about what the other party is doing.
Probably when you no longer want to depend on the other party.
Probably when you no longer see the need to explain anything.
Probably when the your life no longer revolves around the things that were given to you by the other party.

But these are all probably.
What are the exact signs?
I also dunno.
These are all my assumptions.
And I dun like to assume.
Assumptions may lead misunderstandings.
Misunderstanding is one of the fundamental of friendship breakdown.
There is no guarantee that time will help.

There are many reasons why pple drift apart.

Nobody knows the exact reason why this happens.
But you will know how you feel and what makes you want to back off.

I am ever ready to listen to anything that anybody wants to say.
However, if nobody wants to say anything, then I am left with no choice but to follow.

Sometimes I think...When nobody wants to listen to you, is it because you are not treasured or not impt to that person.
If so, why sould I get so upset over the fact that I want to tell you things and you do not want to listen.

Whatever it is, our non verbal language are not helping the friendship at all.
And they are making me very uncomfortable.
I dunno if they are doing the same to you.

The thing is I DUNNO WHAT YOU ARE THINKING and thus I dunno how to react.

If we are both suffocating in this friendship..
Then what is the next step that we should do?
Kill it?
Salvage it?

With you, my option is always the latter.
My direction has always been clear.

Left a note at 12:34:00 PM